Monday, October 3, 2011

First Race Jitters Part 1.

As it stands now my first ever half marathon is about 2 weeks away. 


AHHHH!!

I would be lying if I didn't say that I'm starting to freak out. I feel like I'm just not prepared enough. I mean, I've been running my behind off.... almost literally.... but a part of me is convinced that I didn't train hard enough. I'm still only averaging a 15 min/mile or so for anything over 4 miles. Ugh. I was hoping to finish as close to 3 hours as possible, but I think my PR is going to be finishing under 4 hours. Blah.

I know, I know... I shouldn't be so hard on myself. It's my first big race, I've trained hard, I know I can run/walk the distance and it's supposed to be fun. But it's so hard to squash the competitive part of me that wants to be perfect. I realize it's going to take me a good couple of years before I increase my endurance and speed to a point that is anywhere near most people, but I'm impatient. I want to run fast now! *pout*

Ok... I'm done venting for the evening. I need to go to bed so I can start my7 hell of a long week, which includes, but is not limited to: working two jobs, applying for other jobs, rehearsing, performing, zumba, training, occasionally sleeping and eating. Woot! Bring it on world, I'm ready to tackle it all!

6 comments:

Suz and Allan said...

You'll do great! It's such an accomplishment just to run!

BabyWilt said...

You've done the training you will be fine!!!!

Wells L said...

Suz and Allen is right - it's an accomplishment, a HUGE one for that matter, to arrive at the starting line having trained and being injury free!!!!! Then it's even a grander accomplishment to put on foot in front of the other for 13.1 miles, cross the finish line, get your medal and bask in the joy that you feel for having done your first half (you only get one first!!!). I'm sooo excited for you. I remember every detail of my first half like it was yesterday - don't forget to enjoy it - so that's the memory of the event!

This weekend on my blog, I wrote several posts consolidating things I learned from my half mary class - it might be helpful to you. Also, I wrote this post right before my first half - maybe you can relate :)
http://mystorychapter2.blogspot.com/2010/09/chapter-2-page-146-obsessed.html

And maybe it's good your week is going to be out of control - less time to be anxious about the upcoming race.

You're soooo totally going to be amazing at your race!!!!!!

domwillrunforbeer said...

You're going to rock it! Like everyone else said, finishing this race, no matter the time, is a HUGE accomplishment. I'm volunteering with Team in Training to help direct runners on the course. I'll cheer super loud for you as you run through West Hartford.

~* Jenn *~ said...

I just finished my first half last weekend, so I can totally relate to the feelings you are having.

I am sure you will do fantastic, I struggled with the whole competitiveness thing myself. Just remember that you want to be able to look back and remember and enjoy the whole thing. I think I focused too much on a certain pace and missed part of the experience!

Good luck, you will do awesome! Look forward to hearing all about it when you are done! :)

Stephanie Anne said...

Im so excited to cheer you to the finish!!!

You will totally rock it & then we'll enjoy a beer afterwards since we couldn't have margaritas after the last one!